Posts Tagged ‘Thoughts’

The Price of Freedom is Lonliness


A VERY interesting article in The Atlantic by Julie Beck. Something I think I need to read a couple of times to get the whole picture but one I definitely agree with. Anthony Giddens’ “pure relationship” sounds about right.


A Book of Silence – Sara Maitland


I have not read this book but I have read this article from the Guardian which gives one an idea of what the book is about. A no holds barred (“bard”) look at life away from modern society, alone with just ones thoughts. Possibly scary stuff. Sara Maitland’s book sounds like it might be an interesting read.



Back in Feb 2016 I wrote a post about the 9 steps to live by. In that, number 7 was to “Make my own path in life”. I wrote these steps down back in 2005 after building them up over time since the early 80’s when my character was forming. Perhaps, really, when you think about it, since birth back in ‘64. I’m that old.
Very happily, in 2012, I strayed from my path. For the first time, fell deeply, madly and very stupidly “in love” and followed another’s path for 1 year. At the end of the loving relationship we split but remain good friends, to this day.
I was utterly lost.
Unfortunately, being the kind of person I am, I cannot move on. I have tried and failed a few times to get back to my own path. To be who I was supposed to be.
I am still lost.
Back in 2013, in an alternate blog, I wrote the following comment.
“I understand why people have to avoid their partners when their relationship ends. It’s so their heart doesn’t break”.
People have this self preservation and have to avoid, get angry or even end up hating their partners. They don’t really hate. I cannot believe people could go from loving to hating. I can certainly see love fading away but going from love to hate in a very short time doesn’t ring true unless it’s for self preservation. You cannot love them so you have to hate. You have to break away from their love in order to survive and move on. To avoid your heart breaking.
So this is where I am.
I cannot hate.
My heart is broken.
I look for peace.
It’s 5 years on.
…and I still love her.




“I can shape this day the way I want” – Ben Assado on Where the Wild Men Are.




When you boil it down to its core, life is about sex and death, everything else is filler, mainly for personal gain in the form of nesting (procreation) or distraction of oneself from the inevitable, giving oneself meaning. A belief




It must be great being a tree. Not knowing, just being.


Just BE


Came to a realisation today whilst walking around outside, looking at some trees thinking they will more than likely be there after I die and that is OK. Everything will be fine. it will just BE.


A Smile


I was lying in bed just thinking of past loves and what they had in common. The following quote formed in my mind.
“Of all the sexiest curves that you have, the most beautiful is your smile.”
There is something truely wonderful meaningful spiritual about a smile.
A great thought to start the day.


Thoughtful quote


Because emails don’t soak up tears.


100 Years


I was watching The Terminator the other day and a seemingly innocent remark from Nancy, played by Shawn Schepps, in the restaurant jumped out at me. “Look at it this way. In 100 years, who’s gonna care”.
Quotes can crop up in surprising places.