Archive for December, 2017

Moving

22-December-2017

I’ve been thinking a lot lately about moving to somewhere more conducive to leading a peaceful life. I know it’s who you are and not where you are that matters but something more conducive to that quiet direction may help. Declutter, so to speak. I have some land in mind which I’m going to see. Stick on a livable container and rent out my current place, using the money from that to live on. 6 years to go until my commitment to society ends. 6 years to plan.

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Lost

16-December-2017

Back in Feb 2016 I wrote a post about the 9 steps to live by. In that, number 7 was to “Make my own path in life”. I wrote these steps down back in 2005 after building them up over time since the early 80’s when my character was forming. Perhaps, really, when you think about it, since birth back in ‘64. I’m that old.
Very happily, in 2012, I strayed from my path. For the first time, fell deeply, madly and very stupidly “in love” and followed another’s path for 1 year. At the end of the loving relationship we split but remain good friends, to this day.
I was utterly lost.
Unfortunately, being the kind of person I am, I cannot move on. I have tried and failed a few times to get back to my own path. To be who I was supposed to be.
I am still lost.
Back in 2013, in an alternate blog, I wrote the following comment.
“I understand why people have to avoid their partners when their relationship ends. It’s so their heart doesn’t break”.
People have this self preservation and have to avoid, get angry or even end up hating their partners. They don’t really hate. I cannot believe people could go from loving to hating. I can certainly see love fading away but going from love to hate in a very short time doesn’t ring true unless it’s for self preservation. You cannot love them so you have to hate. You have to break away from their love in order to survive and move on. To avoid your heart breaking.
So this is where I am.
I cannot hate.
My heart is broken.
I look for peace.
It’s 5 years on.
…and I still love her.

Life’s Purpose

16-December-2017

Over at curiosity.com there’s an article from Joanie Faletto you can find your life’s purpose using Ikigai, a Japanese concept which you ask yourself 4 questions.

  1. What do you love?
  2. What are you good at?
  3. What does the world need from you?
  4. What can you get paid for?

If you can find your one thing that answers all 4, you’ve got it made.
Good luck.

Quote

4-December-2017

“I can shape this day the way I want” – Ben Assado on Where the Wild Men Are.